Having a wobble

Ok before I start I need you to know this isn't for sympathy or to make you all feel sorry for me - this is a useful tool for me to get thoughts down and I have decided to share as it is useful for you to see what goes through my head regularly 😬

I have come into a small amount of money - unexpectedly. Not a lot but enough to buy a couple of big things I have had on a list for a while such as a rolling mill and a bigger torch. I went to my computer this morning to order them and stopped!

Why?

Because it is a big amount of money and can I actually justify it? My jewellery isn't selling that well. I do well at my monthly market but nothing sells from my website. I get traffic to the website but this does not translate to sales. I stopped doing workshops for larger groups as they weren't selling either. I have done well for private workshops this year until now and now things have gone quiet.

My mojo is not fab. And now I reach the point where I wonder if it is worth it? I haven't put myself under any stress this year - wanting to consolidate what I learned on the silver metal clay diploma last year but sales are slow and clay and silver prices have gone up so my materials stock is minimal. It's like an ever decreasing circle.

I post things on FB and instagram but get very little feedback - I topped 1000 followers on Insta a few weeks ago and now I seem to be going backwards - 1005 down to 1003 then back up and then down. I know it's not about numbers but why do people stop following - what makes that happen? I would love to know what people want - what is it about what I am offering that just isn't being taken up? Is it that my stuff is to expensive? Is it about reach - do enough people see this? Are the right people seeing it?

Back to the big question today though - do I buy a rolling mill? Do I buy a bigger torch? Do I buy a ton of silver and silver clay and just keep going. What does a rolling mill offer me extra to what I already have?

Hmmm..... For now I will not press that 'buy' button and mull things over a bit more. Maybe not overthink it though eh 😂

TTFN